Lyrics

Verse 1:
How do I feel? It’s too hard to measure/
I bury shit deep, no treasure/
Golden child of my blood, surely no pressure/
Add Ms to the family like Fester/
Too much pride in my blood, leech? I could never/
I’ll drown or fend, like Ester/
Jailed confined to my mind, a storm I ain’t weather/
I drive myself crazy no Tesla/
To many bitches be down and ready to fuck me, but none of them trying to build/
to many niggas be ready to carry my wave, won’t protect me from getting killed/
too many stans invested in personal info, y’all weird and need to chill/
Too many fam grape vining my pockets but never checkin how I feel/
But fuck it there’s never no bitchin, hatin, or fear in me/
short king but still there’s a bear in me/
every big nigga I met, respect me or scared of me/
I talk and they listen like therapy/
Peepin the slithery movements and that shit’s just weird to me/
I keep my distance for clarity/
They copy my style and my ways, it’s just a weak parody/
character makes me a rarity/

Verse 2: 
How do I feel? That’s tough cause I’m guarded/
But music fo sho help me art it/
There’s so much, just where do I start it?/
Maybe my ex, lightest bombardment/
That reality check, I know was a hard hit/ knowing I elevated when we departed/
my music , my streams, my vids they all heart it/
they gassin this shit like they sharted/
I was the money muscle man I know that she struggling cause I held that shit down financially/
all my money tied up in them bills and her gifts, was proud to take care of my family/
I know its not my fault, she choose to walk. The life she wanted. Them papers she handed me/ Still it just pains me knowing she’s suffering. Too good of a heart of a man in me/
Switchin to granny so candidly/
now we talkin bout my heart, my soul, my sanity/
rapid decline in her canopy/
I’m holdin memories, both livin a mental fantasy/
Heart all panicky, thinking all frantically/
Granny help keep me in touch with my humanity/ 
Nightmares scarin me, despair and calamity/ 
Finding her and have to break word to the family/ 
That’s how I feel